Waiting

Insomnia

Waiting

There comes a time
when the prayers are all used up
when you don’t even know
what to pray for anymore
and there is nothing left to do but wait
for the hope those prayers have sown

There are 148 floor tiles
18 bags of tea, six decaf
Twelve black
The coffee is dark
Making up in strength
For the taste it lacks

Twelve hours ago
I knew not these sterile walls
Nor their nooks and crannies
Now I count the dust mites
Floating in the sunbeams
And the numbness of my fanny

But a butterfly floats past a window
It’s shadow dances with joy
Dispelling fear and gloom
Yes there is beauty to be found
And life to be savored
Even in the SICU* waiting room

* Surgical Intensive Care Unit – where I’ve spent the majority of my time these past 3 weeks.  Yes things are finally looking up.  I’ll post more about it later.  😉  For dVerse Poets Poetics Tuesday Sarahsouthwest asks us:

“How much of our time do we spend waiting for things to happen? How much do we spend hanging in the pauses between events, the gaps in our lives?”

Til next time ~Peace ~JPP

 

18 thoughts on “Waiting

  1. I’m so glad that things are finally looking up. The numbers in the second stanza emphasise the emptiness of waiting, as does the counting of dust mites. I love the joyful butterfly, so full of hope.

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  2. There are 148 floor tiles
    18 bags of tea, six decaf
    Twelve black
    The coffee is dark
    Making up in strength
    For the taste it lacks

    That pretty well sums up a period of waiting – boredom, desperation…and bad coffee! I’m glad things are looking up for you, hope you break free soon.

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